In Love With A Mystery Part 14

"I am my Beloved's and my Beloved is mine" - Song of Solomon 6:3


I looked at the house with a different eye alright. Although, I now know that my heart did a tiny secret flip flop, I didn’t know it then. And, if you had told me that it skipped a beat too, I would have put you in the category of my crazy friend, Emily.

No, instead I was much more aware of my mind racing.

I had so many thoughts that it can only be said that I had a serious case of “spaghetti brain”.

Unfortunately though, all I can really be sure of now is the very last thought I had that night before heading off to bed.

It was more of a question than a thought really, and one that definitely needed an answer.

“What’s a girl to do when she discovers that the Mystery Man who just dumped her– even though they never had a first date—is one of the most eligible bachelors in the whole County? Okay, I might be exaggerating on the “whole County” part but it’s my story! And, it isn’t that far off!

The next morning, I still wasn’t any closer to an answer.

Now, I know what you are thinking, “Girl, you are hard headed! He dumped you. There isn’t anything to think about!”

And yes, I would admit that any sensible girl would understand that he was most direct and very cut and dry about not wanting to be involved with courting. So, don’t think I wouldn’t agree with you.

Why if I was giving out advice, I would definitely encourage the girl to get a grip on herself and not to center her interest in him. And, I would even add that it is pointless and extremely foolish to run after any guy and particularly the most eligible bachelors – they are nothing but trouble!

And while I was on a roll, I would in the most mature manner say that it is better to purposed in your heart that God is going to truly plop a guy into your life without any help from you! Of course, with all sincerity, I would also add that it is best to protect your heart and rest your mind on serving the Lord and never give it away to any guy except for the one you are serious about marrying.

Now how did I know this? Why at a tender age, I had heard numerous wonderful miracles of God about how he brought together a man and a woman. Why I already knew the journey of being surprised and looking back at how God orchestrated any love story is what is most exciting and amazing.

Unfortunately, here I was in my early 20’s, still having a battle rage in side of me. So being practical and sensible wasn’t always something I did so well. But, I can say that I was learning and every now and then I would feel and experience a glimpse of maturity within myself and this particularly happened when I wasn’t trying to do the above advice in my own strength.

Now don’t think I was going to go chase after this guy, I can assure you I wasn’t. Instead, I was thinking about going the opposite direction – determining to shut my heart off and have it made of steal -- all the while trying to convince myself this was the more spiritual thing to do in “waiting on a guy” to be dropped from the Heavens. Yes, in all things you can do it in the extreme. Once again, I was dabbling into the redheaded passion of dramatics and I was on the verge of jumping into it full force.

It was a good thing that I remembered being gentle nudge and reminded that I could do something different. I could just rest in whatever God guided me toward, all the while praying God would control my feelings when dealing with this odd new friendship.

Never the one to do the simplest thing, of course, I decided to dabble in both!

What was I thinking?

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